It is getting so close. I can hardly wait. I know I am only 33 weeks, but when it comes to twins they tend to make their appearance anywhere between 34-36 weeks and they won’t let me go past 37 weeks so maximum 4 weeks and the girls will be here!
I am so ready to have the girls. Like most pregnant women will tell you the last few weeks are the hardest. Your baby is close to the size it will be when it is born. You have spent the last how many months with a bowling ball strapped to your front side, you pee every half hour and in my case you crave all the chocolate and sweets that you aren’t allowed to have because of the gestational diabetes. Don’t get me wrong I want the girls to stay in and spend little to no time in the Nicu, but at the same time after Mackenzies death I just wish they were here and in my arms. Pregnancy after loss is a strange monster. It is one of those things that you never fully understand unless you have gone through it, and even the point in pregnancy that you lost your first child changes how you cope with the pregnancy. Having experienced such a late term loss, the first 3/4 of my pregnancy have been difficult but nothing like the last bit. With Mackenzie being an ‘uneventful’ pregnancy and losing him the day before my due date I have it in the back of my mind at all times that there is no safe point in pregnancy. I went into labour expecting to have a healthy child and when they couldn’t find a heartbeat all of my dreams were shattered.
The point I want to make is that every 20 minutes that pass that I don’t feel any movement from one or both of the twins I start to panic. Every time I go in for an appointment with my Doctor and it takes longer than a millisecond to find the heartbeats on the doppler my heart sinks and I am brought back to the experience with Mackenzie. Spoiler Alert: I bawled in the Doctors office on Monday because the resident was having trouble finding Rory’s heartbeat and I just couldn’t handle it. Ever since then I have been freaking out over the smallest things. I need to get myself back in check.
Well I guess the reason you are really here is to see the pictures. So here it goes. I do have to say I did a little better this time only 2 weeks since the last post.
How far along: 33 weeks!
Total weight gain: gained 24.4 lbs total ( It looks like I’ve lost a pound since last time)
Maternity clothes: Some of my maternity clothes are getting small
Stretch marks:I’ve noticed some new ones over the past few weeks. I feel like I can’t stop them now 😦
Sleep: Still getting up every night to go pee and/or from hip pain. I find I can only sleep on my side for a few hours at a time then I have to flip. That in itself is a task.
Best moment of this week: I had an Ultrasound the other day and Scarlett is a little chunker at 4lbs 14 oz and Rory is right on track at 4lbs 6 oz
Miss anything: Still the sugar thing. I wish I could make it through a shower without needing to take a break .
Movement: Scarlett is moving more than Rory lately. I’m thinking that Rory is just so low right now that her movements are not as visible but I can feel them really low in my pelvis.
Food cravings: Poutine and Cheesecake are my latest ones.
Anything making you queasy or sick: Not sick but hardcore heartburn.
Have you started to show yet: I will soon have my own zip code
Gender: Still both girls.
Labor signs: I have dropped, but nothing significant yet.
Belly button in or out: Still in, I’m not holding my breath that its going to stay like that for much longer.
Wedding rings on or off: Off After losing all my baby weight from Mackenzie they need to be sized. They’re still too big.
Happy or moody most of the time: I am still a little moody.
Looking forward to: Meeting my girls.